'You'

I've never thought that this day would come. She leaving me for good this time. She said she doesn't love me anymore.

This year, good people are leaving me for good. Mak cousin aku meninggal dunia, dan aku tak sempat untuk berjumpa dengan dia untuk kali terakhir, and same goes to her father 2 years ago. Then aku tak pernah jumpa kucing kesayangan aku. Tompok, I miss you so much. So much, 3 days I waited for u at Mukah, but u didn't show up. And it make me more sad.

And 'You'. She doesn't love me anymore, dia kata rasa sayang dia dah hilang. Mcm mana rasa sayang tu boleh hilang camtu je? Knp dia saja? Knp tak include aku sekali? Knp rasa sayang aku tak pernah pudar, tak pernah hilang?

I'm still in confuse.

And I've got that feeling, yang dia mungkin ada masalah yg lagi besar compare to that "rasa sayang yg hilang". Maybe I'm one of that bigger problem.

Or maybe dia dah fed up nak jaga hati org lain.

Or maybe she's right about that, rasa sayang hilang tanpa ada sebab munasabah.

Or maybe because of the past.

Or maybe I'm the one who forces her to leave me for good.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

I'm afraid.

Of what might happen in the future.

Depression is killing me inside, killing me slowly.

I don't know what to do.

I still love you 'You'.

Awk ubah sy ke arah kebaikan.

I learned many things from you.

Dulunya sy tak suka baca buku. 

Sekarang buku tu dah mcm sebahagian dlm hidup sy.

Dulu sy tak kisah dengan penampilan sy, selekeh, rambut panjang.

Now I care, and it is all because of you.

How can I let go someone who is really precious in my life?

How can I let go this feeling?

I love you because you, you change my life.

I love you because you unique.

I love you because you different from the other girls.

Most of all, I love you because I love you 'You'.

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