Thoughty thought

RAMBLING TIME!!!! Yaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!

Why? Because I can't sleep. Typical me.

Okay, so I have one addiction, i started do this thing since form 3 i guess. It's kinda hard to throw away this addiction. As if it is part of my life now. And I hate it because it affect my body you know. I wanted to stop doing it since matriculation but I can't. The addiction is too strong maybe. Tbh when I still with her in the past, the addiction seems to fade away. I still do it but I didn't do it often. But after the breakup, it getting worst, out of my control. Now I desperately to stop this addiction but I can't find the way. Maybe it's too late? I'm not sure.

Short sem almost over, and I decide to stay here instead of going back to Dalat. Maybe I just need some times alone, to clear my mind from those mess I've create. Tbh, you occupied 70% of my mind right now, and I need to unload it from my mind, my memory. Whenever I think of you I feel pain, as if my heart being poke by sharp knife. I wish my emotion strip from me. I don't need any emotion. Having emotion just bring me pain.

And now, I started to like another girl, but I'm afraid to tell her of my feeling towards her. I'm not propose her to be my girlfriend or anything that has similarities. I just want to be her friend and maybe when the right time comes, I'll propose her to be my wife. I had enough of relationship that has no valid ties, it always temporary, no matter what kind of promises you've made, it will be broken someday. I hate myself for taking that route, it just waste my time. I really hoping that I have amnesia, and start new life.

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