I want to die, I can't take this anymore. It's really hard for me right now.
I can't even concentrate on my study. I lose interest in many things. I lose my appetite. People seems don't care about me and my existance. Loneliness at its thickest.
I want to share my problem with my friends, but I'm afraid that they'll fed up with my never ending problem. And I don't trust people anymore, including my family. Avoiding disappointment was my top priority for past few weeks. But in the end, I let myself fall into this disappointment abyss. I didn't put expectations to other, but in the end, I'm disappointed, too disappointed.
How can I face this THING alone? It drained my strength to keep me living in this world. I can't keep being positive forever, and I don't feel that I will be happy in future. I don't feel that I'm important to other people. Besides, I'm just an ordinary, average and lame guy. There are nothing in me that can attract people's attention, interest and so on.
"Keep hoping, and keep on moving toward future." but the question is, how to "keep hoping"? How to "move toward the future"?
How?
Is there any hope for me in future? Can hope win against this suicide thought?
We shall see.
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