Recovery

Well, next week on 29th April, I got an appointment with one of the counselor in UNIMAS, her name is Mdm Debra Adrian. I know little of her.

And no, I'm not depressed for a moment. I just want to make sure that that bastard Hiba won't hit me again. Today I'm happy, but no one knows what will happen to me on the next day, maybe I'm sad, mad, or whatever.

It's a start, I want to recover and get rid of this miserable life. It is really hard, coping with this depression alone, someone know what I'm facing right now, but they choose to keep quiet and let me sort things out by myself. Depressive people like me, they need help and attention. They can't sort their problem by themself. Some of them lose the fight and committing suicide, why? Because no one help them to face their demon. I'm going to take action while I'm not in depressive state.

Why counselor? Why don't go and talk to your friends bout it? I have trust issue, I have little trust toward friends nowadays, especially her. In the past, I trust her completely and I believe that she won't hurt me, but in the end, she hurt me like hell.

Nevermind bout that, what's more important is I want to recover and be better.