I'll deal it on my own way, for this time being.

Hi,

Guess who didn't attend the counseling session, appointment, whatever it is? Me. hahahahahaha.

Hey, don't blame me for not attending the appointment, she didn't reply my e-mail at all, I did include my mobile phone number in that e-mail, but I didn't receive either sms nor missed call from her, or her assistant. Maybe she's too busy helping other students.

The reason why I sought counselor's help because depression activate the "second wind" technique and hit me really hard. It lowered my self-esteem, my confidence level, it lowered my desire to keep moving and live my life. Because of it, I skipped my class, stay on bed until dusk, and doing nothing except sleeping. What a waste. The next day, I decided to take action, I opened e-pelajar website, click on "set counseling appointment", and filled all the detail that are required. It was a smooth process until the submission part. I click 'submit', and guess what happened after that? That's right, error, system fking error. Ok then, the system suck, UNIMAS system suck. Those system can go to hell.

After that, I checked whether the counselor included their e-mail address in their profile, and yes they did. So I e-mailed one of the counselor. She replied it the next day. She said she was busy spending her time with her family, ok then. She provided choices of schedule to me. I replied her e-mail and said "I chose Wednesday 29th April". Then, she didn't reply my email. I was hoping to meet her and share my story to her, too bad I didn't attend the appointment. How the hell am I going to know whether she agreed or not with my choice of date when she didn't reply my e-mail? That's why I didn't attend the appointment, because she didn't reply back.

So for this time being, I'll handle my problem, my depression, on my own way. And I still hoping that someday, I can live a normal life free from this bastard  depression.