Living my Life

I keep posting the same things over and over again. Yeah I know, it is booooooooring. But believe me, this is the one and only way for me to keep moving forward, to continue living my life, to keep looking at the bright side of my life, to keep pursuing my happyness.

There was a time where I told myself "I had enough forgiving people's mistake and wrongdoings. In the end, they keep repeating the same shit towards me.". Sometimes I can't handle the emotion, it just flows over. I can't sleep because of the emotion, the pain so deep it bellows. It stupid, they keep hurting me, they don't know cause they don't see that I'm wounded. Turning into a savage beast, fuel with hatred and madness, that's what I'm afraid the most. I'd be a savage beast a long time ago if I didn't have the patient inside me. My world was torn in half. I was lost, I can't even decided what to do after that.

Yeah, I said to myself "No apologies to those who hurt me". But, I did the opposite thing. The thing that was different from what I said to myself. I forgive them. Yeah. It is difficult to forgive them even after all those shit I been put through. I'm push through this feelings of hatred, vengeance and wrath, and with time that should do the healing. Everyday is a new chapter, so why decide to stay in the previous chapter full with gloominess and sadness? Say goodbye to grieve bro. Don't hold on it.

Time won't stop, so we keep moving on.

Cheers,

Love, A.