Suicide

How does it feel when you hang yourself?

Maybe your limbs go numb, you lost your vision, and maybe at that point you try to save yourself but you can't because you can't even move your body. You started to have some hard time breathing, your oxygen level in your blood cell is getting lower in a few seconds, and because of that you're having some brain damage. You can't think properly, maybe you lose your memory.

Some people say hanging is a painless death, but when you wonder about the things you'll going to experience during execution, it's sounds painful, the whole body react and feel the pain. If you do it alone, there is no turning back. If someone notice, they might prevent it from happen.

Well, someone hanged herself yesterday, my friend's sister. Maybe she has reached the depression breaking point and decide to commit suicide. I just leave it there, making assumption is bad. I guess I'm still strong enough to face the future even though the thought of suicide still linger in my mind. Maybe telling people about my intention to commit suicide stop me from doing it. Or maybe I just don't want to die yet. I don't know, because my thoughts and my opinions keep changing.