Nenek

Nenek(sebelah mak) saya ni seorang yang agak tegas, dan garang, macam mak saya. I can barely recall the memory about my nenek. One thing that I can recall, it was me and my nenek, nenek temankan sy pergi ke rumah tok guru, tempat saya membaca iqra' suatu ketika dahulu. Alhamdulillah, tok guru masih sihat sampai sekarang, dan masih mengajar budak2 mengaji. During that time, Malaysia was striked with haze problem. So my mom sewed me a mask, so I could protected myself from the haze.

And there is one memory about my nenek that I will always remember. She passed away on that day, but I thought she was sleeping, and I kept saying that nenek was fine, nenek sihat. And I don't even cried on that day. Maybe I cried but I can't recall that moment. But, I just can't believe that my nenek just passed away on that day. After all, I'm just a kid that doesn't have any idea about what happened to my nenek.

Okay, Nenek(sebelah ayah) pulak, dia baik sangat. Bila kitorang balik kpg sebelah ayah, mmg kenyang makan food yg dia masak. Hahahhaah, best! Ohh, and fyi, she is a cat lover. There's one time when she was back from performing haji at Makkah, her cat was missing, and sebab tu je, dia merajuk. Dia sayang sangat ngan kucing dia.

Waktu dia jatuh sakit, kitorang selalu lawat dia kat hospital. Dia kena strok kalau tak silap. Then a few days later, doctor kata dah tak boleh buat apa2, so kitorang famili bawa nenek balik rumah, mmg dah ajal nenek hari tu, sy lihat sendiri, nenek hembus nafas terakhir, depan2 mata sy, sy nangis, sy dah tak tau nak buat apa dah. Sy nangis.

Datuk sebelah mak dan ayah mmg tak pernah jumpa, or tak dpt ingat. Bagi korang yg ada nenek tu, hargai lah diorang, sbb diorang jaga mak and abah korang jadi awesome sampai hari ni.

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Story

She wakes up, as usual. Yeah, "She wakes up, as usual.", what kind of simple sentence is that?

Usually she wokes up around 9-10.30 o'clock in the morning, during holiday, to be precise, during the month of Ramadan. Yeah, which mean, she didn't woke up for sahur and fajr. Pathetic she is.

After cleaning herself, brush her teeth, and that kind of stuff, she continue doing what she always did during her semester break. Surfing internet, playing games, watching movies and animes, you name it. Lifeless it is. 21 years old, and she supposed to find a part time job during her semester break. Usually she did have this part time job during the holiday. But this time, she decided to stay at home, and supposed to spend her time with her family, ended up continue her boring life routine.

Well, her routine get a little bit interesting when her family decided to work their fasting in their village. But, she was unable to escape from her old life routine, thanks to the internet.

Tarawih, ahhhh. She was unable to concentrate on tarawih. Too distracted, thinking about dunya, reminiscing her past, and so on.

Alas, she repeated this routine again and again, during semester break.
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English aku siklah hebat gilak, agik ada ruang dan masa untuk perbaiki.

Boring.

Sabar

Lately I've realized, day by day I became a less patient person.

Tiap kali bila seseorang buat salah, saya marah.

Everytime people pissed me off, I'm mad.

I miss my old self. Yang dulunya penyabar, walaupun pernah meletup dalam kemarahan. Tapi ia jarang sekali terjadi.

Org yang buat saya jadi seorang yang sangat penyabar dulu, my mother. Dia kuat meleter, pok pek pok pek. Panas baran, bagaikan tiap hari kena tengking. Dua benda ni yang buat sy jadi seorang yang penyabar. Memang ada jgk rasa marah tu bila kena tengking tu semua. But, I ignored that urgency of expressing my anger toward her. Plus, she's my mother, and I'm sure she has reason to mad at us, yeah me and my sister.

Semenjak hidup berjauhan ngan mak and le familia, sy jadi seorang yg kurang sabar. So keluar lah perangai hantu yang selama ni tido dalam jiwa aku. Sampai terbawa bawa balik rumah.

Sometimes aku senyap straight 24 hours, sebab marah. Sebab I tend to say something bad when I mad, so I better shut my mouth. Don't get me wrong, cuz this is the only way I handle my bad temper.

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