That moment when you feel lonely. Hurt. My heart hurts a lot. Kawan tak pernah nak dtg jumpa, and the one who always make some efford to build connection between me and them, is always myself. That hurts, a lot. I'm tired of this unwanted feeling. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired for being patients of almost 5 years. I'm tired, of everything. I've tried to build the connections, but what did I get in return? They turned away. Dying without no one know, it scared me you know? Because I'm wondering, what if I die tomorrow, would they come and visit me for the last time? Depress gila kot. Dok rumah, main game, makan, tido, gi surau. Tu je keja waktu cuti ni. Org nak stay mukah but mom won't allow it. Nak kerja pun tak dapat, nak ambik lesen moto pun tak boleh. So apa la gunanya aku hidup 22 tahun ni, but still dilayan mcm budak kecik?
I dunno whether I wanna go home the next sem break nanti.
