I'm never gonna make it

That feeling when you have the thought of not going to live long, yeah, scary and disappointing.
Well, I just wanna share my thought since I can't sleep, well, I'm having a thought about whether people around me understand me or not. I just have this feeling that no one will ever understand me eventhought I already explain about something or anything to them.

I ended up kept all things to myself and rarely talk to people around me, my close friend and my family. Whenever they ask questions, I answer it as simple and short as possible, because I hate explaining something that people don't understand. "Yes", "no", "okay", that's my common answer.

The worst part, I have the feeling that I'll will have a shorter lifespan than other normal people out there, with my current lifestyle, not eating meals properly, having migraine almosy everyday and so on. Maybe cancer cell in my body has awaken. I know "awaken" sound absurd, but you all should know this, every single human on planet Earth has cancer cell in their body, waiting for a moment of awakening and wreck havoc toward every part of your body.

Well, the simple answer? We just have to wait and see.

A.

Stargazing

Hi,

So right now I'm in the bus, travelling back to my hometown. I always travel at night. Why? Because less traffic, and less traffic leads to safer road, low probability of getting into accident. Another reason why I choose to travel at night is to stargaze the sky.

I love to stargaze since I was a child. Nowadays it is hard for me to stargaze because of light pollution from the street light, household light an so on.

When I travel during nighttime, there are no light pollution, the surrounding is almost completely dark, and I can see clearly the star shine in the sky, I can see the galaxy belt @ galaxy tentacle @ whatever it is. Right now I gazing through bus window.

The sky are so beautiful. No clouds at all. The night sky reminds me that no matter how dark your life right now, you can still find the light even if the light is dim. No matter how hard your life right now, don't ever lose hope.

Cheers,

A.

Thought of a guy who eat Nasi Ayam Percik.

Hai, and Salam Ramadhan Kareem Benzema.